In case you haven't noticed, I haven't exactly been "happy" the past few days. While I don't like to admit it, I kind of been a little "bitter and angry" lately. 20 years and I have yet to find myself in a relationship on Valentine's day. Its just another excuse for the world to point out my single lifestyle. This year it just so happens that is has been particular noticeable.
So today, I came home and decided to lay down, stare at the ceiling and do some serious thinking. And yes, I do lay on the ground and stare at the ceiling when I need life answers. It works. No need to comment.
Anyway, while I was doing my deep thinking, I realized something rather important. I don't have a special someone in my life. And yes, I am as single as ever. But that doesn't mean I'm not cared about. In fact, I have friends that love and care about me in more ways then I even know. Granted, I can get a little "stand-offish" and "annoyed" with some of my friends, for being "over protective" or "over-caring" ... but in reality, I could be one of the luckiest people alive.
Not only do I have friends that will make me laugh and make life excitement, I have friends that would beat up any dumb ass who thinks they can break my heart. Never in my life, have I found myself crying alone. God has always put someone right beside of me, a shoulder to cry on if you will.
Valentine's day is suppose to be about love. So I may not have the perfect guy right now, but I sure do have a lot of people that love me. And I think that is worth more then any boyfriend right now.
Happy Valentine's Day!
Rachel :)
